I will be seeing you

My sweet little grandma passed away last night. It couldnt have been a more spiritual night for our family. I will miss my grandma I have many fond memories of her and I will hold tight to those memories and think of her often. I will miss my grandma and all the times of watching her trying to skip and hop I remember asking her just to do it so I could have a good laugh and her knowing that was my intentions and still doing it, her telling the amazing stories. I think her and my grandfather have such a wonderful way of telling a story that puts you right into the story. I have a fond memory of when we first moved to utah we lived with them for a while and one evening she took me to her room and i sat on her bed and she pulled out her jewelry box and we went through her jewelry and she told me where she got each piece I remember thinking how beautiful each item was and that grandma surely must be very rich and special to have all of these incredible selections. I remember her when we would walk in the door asking me if I wanted a root beer and offering a pin wheel or a chips ahoy cookie in the red bag. Making us salad with oil, vinegar and sugar salad dressing. Always have her nails painted and a love of shoes. In California I remember going into the play room and there were these red high heels with a bow at the toe and they were opened toed shoes and I thought they were the greatest thing ever. She loved chocolate I think that is where I gained a love for chocolate. She was very protective of her shoes and purse always had them with her. She loved watching old movies and doing her crossword puzzles and having her coke in her cup wih no ice. I always loved her five hour beef soup. I remember when I was little they babysat me while my mom worked at jasper elementary and they had a light blue car and we would go for rides. Also going with them on camping trips in there trailor to right wood and utah lake. She was a beautiful artist she painted some amazing pictures I always wished that I had one because I always thought they were so fantastic. Before her demensia got bad she would call me to check on me at least twice a week. one night at a family party recently before she fell she grabbed my hand and said do you know that you are named after my mother and she sat and told me stories about my great grandmother. Even when she was feeling her worst at the manor you were so sweet to everyone you changed many people lifes that were there it shows what an incredible woman that you are even to the end. The thing that I loved the most is her and my grandpas love that they had for each other. You never saw them not holding hands. They had the perfect love story one that we all looked up to and wanted our marriages to be like. When she started getting worse with demensia we would try to get her comfy on the couch and she would only last there for a moment because grandpa wasnt close enought to her. I could go on and on about my memories that I have of her I love you grandma and you will be terribly missed by all that knew you. I know that you are smiling down on us. I think that you wouldnt have changed a thing about what went on in your final moments here on earth. It was a very spiritual and peaceful moment. I will miss you so much and right now as much as it hurts to think that I will not see you for a while I know that you are out of pain and I am sure chatting with all your loved ones that have passed before you. I love you grandma thank you for being such a wonderful example to me You will be never ever forgotten! Today was my anniversary and as hard as it was to lose you It will never be a day I will forget. I know that for us it was a bitter sweet moment wanting you out of pain but the selfish side of me was so sad to let go. I know that you are happy and that is what i keep trying to tell myself. I love you grandma till we meet again!

Sadie Jewelz

So Ben posted that last comment. He is amazing he has helped out so much with sadie and the other three monkeys. I love him so much and so thankful to have him. I cant believe that our little Sadie is already 3 weeks old. I am obsessed with her. I never want to put her down. I love being a mom to these 4 kids. Ben the other day texted me and said do you realize that we have four kids. I couldnt be happier with my life I have been so blessed. As Ben said the other day Sadie still pretty much still sleeps we have only had three nights that she was up a little more than usual so I cant complain. She is a little Angel and Ben has a cute little nickname for her he calls her his little peanut. She just is so little, you forget how little they are. We need to upload our pictures I take pictures everyday but havent downloaded them yet. I love my little family. These are pictures from the hospital.

We now have a family of 6 and things are filling up quick (rooms, minivan, dressers and of course garbage). We are so happy to have Sadie with us and although she has had a few sleepless nights she does spend 98% of the time sleeping. It is pretty sad when we have to strip her down naked to get her to wake up. You would think that after the 4th child we would be acustom to late nights and no sleep but the two nights that she has been up have been brutal (FOR CASSIE). Ben sleeps as though nothing is going on.

We have a NAME...

So we can now finally call our baby that will be here in about six weeks something. I am the type that likes to call it by name and talk to her. Her name is going to be Sadie Jewelz Sandberg. I really had my heart stuck on a few names at first there was paisley, presley, addison and of course sadie. Well the only one we could both agree on and love is Sadie and so for the middle name we like to do family names. Carter is John from Ben and lucky enough my dads name is john, Hallie is Marie from me, Ellie is Lyn from my mom and also bens family has Lyn and now Sadie you might be wondering why Jewelz? Well Bens mom is Julie Alaine and so I told ben he could decide I thought he would do alaine or laine but he came up with Jewelz which is different and fun at the same time and I also have a sister named julie so there we go again. I am so excited to meet our little one. I am at little sad because I know that when she comes our little man will start first grade and be gone all day and Hal will start preschool and be gone 2 days a week for a few hours and I am no ready to let go. But I guess ready or not here it comes. I love my little family and feel so blessed.

So we got a new camera and I havent been able to blog because I cant figure things out on it so I need Ben to help me. I am huge right now feeling like I am going to pop. This pregnancy has been a hard one for me but I am so thankful for it and so excited to see our little one. Hopefully soon I will up date and show pictures of my cute kids and my handesome husband that might I add while I am getting insanely huge has gone from 211 to 173. He looks amazing but then again I always think that he does. I am the luckiest girl ever he takes such great care of me and our kids I couldnt wish for more. Sorry about all my babbiling but I am on one!

kids say the funniest things

So the other day I am getting ready and Carter comes over to me and says mom your belly is really big is that baby ready to come out yet? I said Oh I hope not, Carter Mommy still has a very long time left until the baby will be healthy and strong. Carter then says you mean it is going to get even bigger than that! Not so much the wording but his facial expressions were killing me. I love my kids even when there honesty makes you feel like a huge COW!

Getting Bigger

Last night watching tv, me and Ben were talking and I coul feel the baby moving like crazy so I put my hand on my stomach and felt it. I turned to Ben and said do you want to see if you can feel the baby so he put his hand on my stomach and totally felt it. We were so excited. I am only 20 weeks I will be 21 on wednesday so we didnt think we would feel it so soon so it was very exciting. We only know about 80% that it is a girl. Every time I go in she is very modest my other kids were like here I am so hopefully next time we will know for sure.

We are having a ........

Little Girl! We are so excited and we finally have an official due date August 28th.
We are very excited and especially glad that the baby is doing good. It was pretty scary there for a while but today to see the heart beat and know that our little woman is growing and developing right on schedule it brings a lot of comfort. Thank you to my wonderful sisters and all there love and support during the past 16 weeks. I couldnt have made it without you. I hope and pray that from here on out no more scares. Especially no more kidney stones good love like pregnacy sickness isnt mean enough throw that in there. No really I am grateful people have it a lot worse so I am thankful I can actually handle all that I just struggle with the problems with the baby more than anything. But for this week and hopefully the rest to come we are good. Thank you for all your love and support and prayers it really helped our family out alot.

Baby #4 here we come!

Yes it is true we are blessed to be having another little one in our home. It was a surprise and we couldnt be happier. We are still not 100% on the due date it is either august the 24th or september 1st. It has been a rough one but well worth it and we cant wait to find out what we are having. All the kids would love a little brother. Carter actually said Mom if it is a girl can we send it back and get a brother? I laughed so hard. He also said mom there are too many girls in this house I need a boy to play star wars and superheros with. I love my kids and no matter what we have we will be excited. We find out hopefully if the baby works with us on March 10th I will be 16 weeks that is when we found out what our kids were. So we will keep you updated!