I will be seeing you

My sweet little grandma passed away last night. It couldnt have been a more spiritual night for our family. I will miss my grandma I have many fond memories of her and I will hold tight to those memories and think of her often. I will miss my grandma and all the times of watching her trying to skip and hop I remember asking her just to do it so I could have a good laugh and her knowing that was my intentions and still doing it, her telling the amazing stories. I think her and my grandfather have such a wonderful way of telling a story that puts you right into the story. I have a fond memory of when we first moved to utah we lived with them for a while and one evening she took me to her room and i sat on her bed and she pulled out her jewelry box and we went through her jewelry and she told me where she got each piece I remember thinking how beautiful each item was and that grandma surely must be very rich and special to have all of these incredible selections. I remember her when we would walk in the door asking me if I wanted a root beer and offering a pin wheel or a chips ahoy cookie in the red bag. Making us salad with oil, vinegar and sugar salad dressing. Always have her nails painted and a love of shoes. In California I remember going into the play room and there were these red high heels with a bow at the toe and they were opened toed shoes and I thought they were the greatest thing ever. She loved chocolate I think that is where I gained a love for chocolate. She was very protective of her shoes and purse always had them with her. She loved watching old movies and doing her crossword puzzles and having her coke in her cup wih no ice. I always loved her five hour beef soup. I remember when I was little they babysat me while my mom worked at jasper elementary and they had a light blue car and we would go for rides. Also going with them on camping trips in there trailor to right wood and utah lake. She was a beautiful artist she painted some amazing pictures I always wished that I had one because I always thought they were so fantastic. Before her demensia got bad she would call me to check on me at least twice a week. one night at a family party recently before she fell she grabbed my hand and said do you know that you are named after my mother and she sat and told me stories about my great grandmother. Even when she was feeling her worst at the manor you were so sweet to everyone you changed many people lifes that were there it shows what an incredible woman that you are even to the end. The thing that I loved the most is her and my grandpas love that they had for each other. You never saw them not holding hands. They had the perfect love story one that we all looked up to and wanted our marriages to be like. When she started getting worse with demensia we would try to get her comfy on the couch and she would only last there for a moment because grandpa wasnt close enought to her. I could go on and on about my memories that I have of her I love you grandma and you will be terribly missed by all that knew you. I know that you are smiling down on us. I think that you wouldnt have changed a thing about what went on in your final moments here on earth. It was a very spiritual and peaceful moment. I will miss you so much and right now as much as it hurts to think that I will not see you for a while I know that you are out of pain and I am sure chatting with all your loved ones that have passed before you. I love you grandma thank you for being such a wonderful example to me You will be never ever forgotten! Today was my anniversary and as hard as it was to lose you It will never be a day I will forget. I know that for us it was a bitter sweet moment wanting you out of pain but the selfish side of me was so sad to let go. I know that you are happy and that is what i keep trying to tell myself. I love you grandma till we meet again!

Sadie Jewelz

So Ben posted that last comment. He is amazing he has helped out so much with sadie and the other three monkeys. I love him so much and so thankful to have him. I cant believe that our little Sadie is already 3 weeks old. I am obsessed with her. I never want to put her down. I love being a mom to these 4 kids. Ben the other day texted me and said do you realize that we have four kids. I couldnt be happier with my life I have been so blessed. As Ben said the other day Sadie still pretty much still sleeps we have only had three nights that she was up a little more than usual so I cant complain. She is a little Angel and Ben has a cute little nickname for her he calls her his little peanut. She just is so little, you forget how little they are. We need to upload our pictures I take pictures everyday but havent downloaded them yet. I love my little family. These are pictures from the hospital.